Project Rockstar 2010 – Application FAQ

Project Rockstar 2010 has been officially announced.

This year it’s being spearheaded by Jeremy Soul, and is going to be set in London and Stockholm (also known as heaven on Earth). I expect this year’s Project Rockstar to be vastly different from last years – different emphases, less hectic travel schedules, hopefully less swine flu… and for the first time ever, the inclusion of both female participants and dating coaches.

Small side tangent:

Soul, Starlight and myself did an experimental “trial run” last week in San Francisco – we took a group of 6 women out on the town, and taught them how to cold approach and talk to guys. Starlight has a copy of the mindmap we came up with over at his blog: http://www.thestarlightblog.com/2010/02/girl-game-girls-get-a-strategy-to-meet-mr-right-in-san-francisco/

The distinctions we came up with are pretty fascinating. Openers work differently, the structure of emotional progression works differently, and going for the “close” goes differently.

It was a great learning experience all around, and I’m sure I’ll share some of the insights with some of my female friends over the coming weeks.

Back to Project Rockstar:

I’ve gotten a lot of questions about if people should apply, how much it’s going to cost, was it worth it, what’s involved, how to write an application etc etc… so I thought I’d answer some of the more common questions here.

Who is this suitable for?

If you are male, or female, and want more out of your life in general, you should consider applying. You are going to learn more than just how to date pretty much whoever you want – you are going to learn about social circles, about different ways to make and manage money, and different ways to live your life. The way it turned out last year, the remaining Rockstars at the end were all around 20-30 years of age. I don’t think that age matters that much if you are committed to making a change if your life. If you think you have what it takes – apply!

How much will/did it cost?

The answer is: it depends. If you live in the UK and you plan properly, you can probably do it for $2,000 or so. If you live abroad, you have to factor in plane tickets to-and-from Europe. I personally spent about $15,000 last year, though that was flying business class to-and-from the US, staying in nice hotels and eating out most of the time. Living in a convenient area in London, perhaps striking up a deal with a local Chinese restaurant to deliver takeout nightly and good planning will go a long way to reducing your costs.

Was it worth it?

Absolutely. Two events stand out to me from last year: 1) When my business started to take off, and 2) Project Rockstar. I saw it as an 8-week investment into improving my life – a chance to get away from old anchors and habitual patterns, and to both do something different and learn about a completely new way of living socially. It really comes down to asking if you’re willing to put on hold everything in your life for 6 (in my case 8 ) weeks, and walk away with more mentors, knowledge, experience, contacts and capabilities than the average person acquires over 2 lifetimes. Over that 8 weeks I also made friendships that will be with me for the rest of my life. Was it worth it? Fuck yeah.

How has life been since Project Rockstar?

I’m not going to go into personal details, but… one of the models we learnt over Project Rockstar was that of Health, Wealth and Relationships. I personally like to add in an extra section that I call “Happiness”. My life has gained momentum in all four areas since the end of Project Rockstar. I am doing things in all four areas that I would never have considered possible before. More importantly, it is continuing to gain momentum, and I have a much clearer picture of where I am headed over the next couple of years.

Will you (Whim) be involved in Project Rockstar 2010?

Most likely yes, I’ll be involved as a mentor. I am keen on teaching some online marketing strategies to the Rockstars for 2010, probably closer to the end of the program. I will also likely teach modules in productivity and efficiency – I taught a Cliff Notes version to the Rockstars as an impromptu session last year, and it blew them (and the lucky Rockstar mentors who got cc’d on the email) away.

What should I write in my application?

Ahhh… The million dollar question. It really depends – what sort of person are you, and how much effort are you willing to put in?

This is almost like a job or college application – take your time, think it through, present your best self, and use proper grammar and punctuation.

Keychain actually has a great guide up here: http://www.adventuresofkeychain.com/2009/06/18/how-to-get-into-project-rockstar-09-directors-cut/ – I actually wish I had seen that last year

Here’s what I did to write my application last year:

1. Read the entire Project Rockstar 2008 thread. If you’re on The Lounge, you can see the notes I posted up as a summary from it. This year you have the threads from 2008 and 2009 to read.
2. Read everything Mr M has ever published. This year my suggestion would be read and watch everything Jeremy Soul has up online.
3. Wrote a preliminary draft.
4. Mulled over it for a week.
5. Reread my draft, and rewrote it.
6. Thought long and hard about what value I could bring to the program – what does someone like Mr M / Soul value? What value can I bring to their lives by being part of Rockstar? What value can I bring to the other Rockstars by being part of the program?
   
7. Rewrote my application again.
8. Gave my application to a bunch of friends who I innately trust, to read and reread and proofread.
9. Rewrote my application again.
10. Sent it in.

More tips:

• Use proper grammar and punctuation. I can’t emphasise this enough.
• Don’t be afraid to ask. Alex Flair, Micha and myself have all offered to field questions on The Attraction Forums for people interested – so ask away.
• First-received-first-read. Applications are being taken on a rolling basis this year, so the sooner you get it done, the higher your chances of being selected.
• Be honest. Present your best self, but tell the truth.
• Reputation is everything. A lot of you have likely been on Love Systems programs, and have rapport with your former instructors/approach coaches. I’m not saying that it’ll help, but you know a huge part of Project Rockstar is social networking…
• Go for maximum impact. Get to the point and convey your passion – for life! This is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. So make it count.

- Aaron P

Farewell Project Rockstar

So I wrote a summary to Project Rockstar about a week ago. A lot has changed since then – most of it in my own reflection of myself. Below is how I feel about Project Rockstar as it comes to an end, given all that has transpired.

The initial premise of Project Rockstar was to develop our social skills to the point where we were cold approach masters, and to be well on our way to becoming social masters (in the area of social circles and connectors). It was also envisioned that we would develop automated e-commerce businesses to free up our time to pursue our social aspirations. We were also supposed to be put on a rigorous fitness and health regime to shape us into peak physicality. In total, these things covered the three main areas of life – health, wealth, relationships. The endgame for all this is the concept of Supernova – to have so much gravitational pull in our lives, that things just happen. Women, wealth, connectors and good things are all drawn in of their own accord.

Those were the expectations. Mr M said to us in the beginning that by week six of Project Rockstar we would find ourselves with better cold approach game than the instructors teaching us.

Reality has turned out differently.

Relationships
In the area of social circle mastery, we’ve been given a roadmap, and a bunch of high-level principles to apply to our lives. This is something that can’t really be taught in an in-field format. It’s a matter of learning the knowledge and tools, and then it’s entirely up to us to apply them to our lives. And apply we will.

In the area of social skills and cold approach, I cannot help but to feel somewhat disappointed – both at myself, and at the way the scheduling worked out with various instructors for the relationships part of the Project. Last year, Rockstar was run on a “one instructor per day” basis, and it was up to the instructors to determine what happened throughout the given day. This year, we were anywhere and everywhere, with business, health, wealth creation, pickup theory and mini-seminars scheduled all throughout. The result of this was less field time in the beginning, and as a result, less hand-on instruction. Coupled with a hectic travel schedule and a lot of time and nights out spent approach coaching meant less cold approach instruction overall.

At the moment, none of us are focussed on cold approach. To a large extent, we’re just sick of it. We see the potential in things beyond game, and realise that cold approaching for the rest of your life is not the way to go for everyone. But, for the sake of closure, if I were to assess each remaining Rockstars’ game as things are, it would break down like this. Micha’s game *has* surpassed that of the instructors. The man is a beast, and he is unstoppable. To anyone who has seen him infield in the past couple of weeks, this is plainly obvious. Alex’s game has made exponential jumps in the past couple of weeks – it is like everything just clicked for him and his inner expression of self is constantly shining through (and Alex is one happy and cheerful dude).

As for me… I find it difficult to be the most objective of people when thinking about myself, but I’ll try anyhow I don’t actually feel that my game has improved that much. All the so-named “crazy” things that I’ve done over the course of Project Rockstar, were things that I had done before – like one-minute kiss closes or holding court in a large six-set or opening and number-closing a bunch of girls during daygame. Sure, I did a lot more of them throughout Rockstar. And I feel that my consistency has gone up… but I’m not seeing a stark contrast in where I was before as compared to where I am now. What I have discovered, is where the gaps are in my game. I now know I am pretty weak at teasing and playing the role of the happy asshole, whereas pre-Rockstar I thought I was pretty good at it. I now know that emotional openness is something that I can develop, whereas before I was happy to just let it be.

A lot of the deep, buried inner game issues that surfaced over the course of Project Rockstar (especially in the final couple of weeks) are on their way to being handled. For the first time in a long time, I feel like I can accept myself for who I am, and this excites me – because it is the precursor for the next step. I now have an understanding of why I am the way I am, and how the mechanism that makes me tick actually works. This opens up a world of possibilities, and the potential to explore new experiences that I have never considered before (like finding a girl and falling in love). I know however, that there is still a long way to go… but things are progressing. Even today, being out with Bugsy and then talking with Alex, I found yet another piece of the puzzle.

The feeling coming out of all of this is that I know where I need to be going in terms of pure, technical game, and have a plan for what I need to do post-Rockstar. About a week ago I was incredibly frustrated that I had come into Rockstar with expectations, and walked away without hitting them. Now… I am fine with that. It took a lot of discussion with Mr M and Dr Yen and the other Rockstars (especially Micha and Alex) for me to realise that there are really multiple sides to everything, and that there is inherently nothing wrong with being who you naturally are – there is no need to constantly “fix” things. The other realisation I had of not always needing to be constantly happy was *huge*… and is the foundation for a healthier feeling of self-acceptance.

Wealth
In the area of business I am walking away with more than I could ever dream of. I thought I would be learning how to build another six-figure business from scratch. Instead, I now have a plan for a multi-million dollar online empire, and a plan for ongoing wealth creation and preservation that I can take and start implementing. Over the past couple of days, we have taken the process of what Braddock and Mr M did with Social Circle Mastery and applied it to business and wealth. We all know where to go and what to do, now it’s just a matter of doing it. On top of this, we have a number of high-level principles that we can apply to the way we do business to make it congruent with both ourselves and with the way that the business world actually works. I walk away with the feeling that I will never have to worry about money again for the rest of my life – I have a blueprint for success, and enough reference experiences to know that if I was financially wiped out tomorrow, I’d be back and kicking ass within three months if not three weeks.

Health
The health arena of Project Rockstar was less-than-ideal. I believe that I spent about two-and-a-half of the six weeks sick, and the first six weeks living in less-than-hygienic conditions. We did no regular exercise plan (I reverted to my own exercise regime after three weeks), and we ate out most of the time. The one takeaway that I received was the green drink supplement that London Hunk recommended – that is something I will continue taking in my everyday life, as it really does increase energy levels throughout the day.

Supernova
If I picture my life as an emerging supernova, I can start to see things coming together. I know where I am and where I’m headed in all areas of my life, and I’ve received mentoring and training in everything that I need to get there. The rest is up to me.

Learnings
This being probably my last “official” Project Rockstar post, I thought I’d write a brief summary of the things I’ve learnt… about game, about business, and about myself.

Outer Game

• Everything about outer game is a skill that can be learnt.
• The power of off-field practice. If it’s good enough for Olympic athletes… it’s good enough for us.
• Being a happy asshole is an attractive trait, if not THE attractive trait.
• The magic daygame formula: humour + value + relate.
• Logistics and emotional management (inserting qualification and comfort where needed) are everything when it comes to dating. Men and women are biologically driven to have sex – it’s up to you to structure the conditions that let this happen.
• Learn to be comfortable talking about sex. Become a sexual master.
• Always approach. You never know what will happen. You always regret not approaching, you never regret approaching.
• Soul’s duck analogy and the secret to his smoothness. Be the duck gliding across the water, but paddling furiously underneath.

Inner Game and Myself

• Happiness is a myth.
• People are fucked up. Find the one thing that makes them amazing and appreciate it.
• Learn to live with paradoxes.
• Self-acceptance is the precursor to growth.
• Accept that there are just some things in your life that you want for no reason at all.
• The Alex Lesson. Learn to love yourself.
• The power of daily rituals.
• Your life is the sum of your experiences. Do things outside of your comfort zone, and seek out new experiences.
• The value of variety. At the very basic level, this keeps you sane.
• There is no need to lie. Talk to girls you genuinely find attractive.
• You only need to bat 30/100 to score the girl.
• Find your boundaries and enforce them at all costs.
• The magic of teaching others, and how it changes the way your brain perceives the world.
• Mentors, knowledge and experience.
• Recognise your own dark side and revel in it.

Social Circle Mastery

• Be a good guy.
• Navy Seals and Powerpuff Girls.
• Have integrity.
• When you’ve made it, help pull others up. Paradoxically, don’t help others if they don’t want help.

Wealth

• Passive income is everything (it took us 7 weeks of mentoring and a 12 hours of masterminding to figure this out).

Thank You
This is also the place to say thank you to everyone involved in Rockstar.

First of all the Rockstars themselves.

Claude – we didn’t get to talk much man, but I sense you’re happy with where you’ve been and where you’re headed.

Vishal – being told by you that I’m an asshole is probably one one of the highest compliments I’ve ever received. Underneath everything, I know that you’re a good guy – don’t let people tell you otherwise.

Josh – thanks for the long talks over lunch, and for always having that other perspective on things. I appreciate it more than the confines of the English language can express.

Micha – thank you for showing me how to be a Viking caveman, and for showing me a different way of being.

Alex – dude, if you’re not Le Président in ten years I’m going to be disappointed. We make love to le women… yah?

To our manager Conor – let’s hug it out, bitch

To the instructors.

Dr Yen – thank you for making me realise that everyone has different paths and different ways of living. And for helping me find the motivation to move on and continue on the journey. We never got to see your “applied sexual mastery” videos… maybe one day.

Soul – for taking care of us in Stockholm and Vegas, and for helping me through some of the lowest emotional points of the past five years of my life. It’s good to know, that end of the journey, there’s a life of Swedish blondes and spitroasts that awaits.

London Playboy – for encouragement, for pushing me beyond my comfort zone, and for always remaining positive. And for getting us hooked on stripper game.

5.0 – thanks for showing us what it’s like on the high-end of things, and for opening our eyes to what’s possible when you go from good to great.

Vercetti – for taking the time to help us become more in touch with our physical selves. I’ll see you at the next San Francisco bootcamp… right?

Keychain – your story from Rockstar last year inspired us all to be here. Without you, we would not have had the opportunities that we have been given, or the experiences that went along with them. Thank you.

Sheriff – for discussing life and game with me in Thai while we were in Vegas, and for teaching us breakthrough comfort. Sorry I didn’t make it through your whole bootcamp – having swine flu kinda sucks. p.s. still waiting for those notes!

Paladin – thank you for putting Rockstar into perspective, and for teaching me the value of appreciating others.

Freedom, Daxx, the DRH, Curran, Magnus – for the encouraging talks and insights into the way you live your lives.

Alex S & Wizard – thank you all for taking time out of your busy schedules to head in-field with us and show us a good time.

Bugsy – for sharing your own story with me, and for having the patience to listen to mine (I know, I can be annoying at times). For being always positive and upbeat, and showing me a different way of being.

To the Love Systems crew and approach coaches from Vegas, thank you for the crazy adventures and Red Bull. I hope I see a bunch of you Stateside in the future!

To all the LSS and London Community guys – fantastic to meet a bunch of you in person, it’s been quite a trip.

To everyone who’s been reading the blog, and has followed along the ups and downs and highs and lows. Thank you for reading, and writing. It means a ton to me.

To our other mentors, London Hunk, Jeff, Bao, Kunal, Julian, Aidan, Thomas, Andrew, Jamie – thank you all.

To all the English, German, Swedish, European and American and other girls I’ve met over the past two months – I apologise for confusing a bunch of you, and am sorry I will not be around to get to know the rest of you better.

To Adam Brown, for listening without judgement, and for helping me work out stuff that I could not have worked out alone. Trying to work out what goes on in my head tends to make people’s brains explode – I applaud your courage in doing so… and I am looking forward to the book.

And a special thank you to Mr M for making this all happen. You’ve made me take a hard look at the way I live my life and realise that there’s nothing inherently wrong with it, and shown me what the next level is – for this, I am eternally grateful. Oh, and you can…

- Aaron P

p.s. As Paladin reminded us, Rockstar is the opening credits to the movie of our lives. The rest of my movie is playing live at the adventures of whim.

Days 50-51: A day in the life and the end

Monday
What a day. We started off at 2 in the afternoon with an NLP and coaching session with Thomas O’Duffy (http://www.lifechanging.ie/).

He gave us some very awesome advice, condensed from his years of studying NLP and psychology and human performance, and distilled into what he recognises as “the best of the best”.

What I like about his approach is that he recognises that a lot of people in the NLP community are actually pretty messed up – NLP promises a lot but most of the time it fails to deliver. And those that usually model certain members of the NLP community end up as messed up as those they follow. Sounding familiar? It’s almost like the seduction Community in some ways.

Thomas gave us two very powerful pieces to implement daily.

One is a ritual of four questions, to ask ourselves on a day-to-day basis. They are:

1. What have I appreciated and enjoyed the most in the past day?
2. What have I done really exquisitely?
3. How have I improved?
4. Based on today, how can I do things better tomorrow?

He also gave us the notion of a morning ritual, which is a concept from the book The Power of Full Engagement by Tony Schwartz. In case you are wondering, here is the morning ritual I will be using post-Rockstar. It is based on the morning ritual I used to have pre-Rockstar, and modified using insights I’ve learnt along the way:

1. Wake up.
2. Drink 500mL of water.
3. Steam and essential oils.
4. Exercise and stretches. Either 15min of cardio followed by stretching or a yoga routine. Vercetti’s posture, movement and vocal projection tuning ritual.
5. Yen’s PC muscle exercises.
6. Chi packing.
7. Get changed.
8. Morning shake (use a blender). This stuff is awesome. Ingredients: 1/2 pack frozen acai, 1/2 cup frozen blueberries, 1 cup milk, 1 frozen banana, 2 tablespoons hemp protein powder, 1 teaspoon bee pollen, 1 teaspoon flax seed, 1/2 teaspoon vanilla essence, pinch of sea salt.
9. Circle of Excellence exercise.
10. (optional) 1 hour of business or self-development reading.
11. (optional) 30 minutes of language learning.
12. (optional) 30 minutes of neural net training in some skill.
13. Most important business task of the day.

Thomas also worked with us on individual aspects and issues that we had. For me it was better understanding my issues with emotional openness and emotional connect. What I found was that my issue is not so much emotional openness, it’s more that I tend to strip out emotions from memories very quickly, and file them away without emotions attached.

Thomas showed me how to reverse the process of emotional nullification that I use, and how to use it to open up emotions in select memories and in the present. I’ve been playing with it and it is pretty fucking cool. As with most things, this is an ability that I will craft and use over time, and get better at controlling. If there was one single thing that I walk away from Rockstar grateful for, it is this.

We spent the early evening working on some business and game tasks and then… all of a sudden, there’s a knock on my hotel door. It’s Micha. And Vishal. WTF.

He’s back. And he brought his Porsche.

We hop in and go in search of food. We end up in Leceister Square eating Mexican food, and driving to South London to drop Micha off at his girl’s house. This is where it gets weird. We were stopped just outside where we were dropping off Micha by the police (for “erratic driving”). They pulled each of us aside and started asking questions… it was pretty funny to watch. Studying social dynamics and pickup gives you a unique insight into human communication – you start to recognise things that people do in specific contexts, and how you may do similar things to others where you are navigating through an interaction. For example, the police officer kept on trying to use state break questions on us. Multiple times. Unsuccessfully. It was kinda funny to see them all talk to each other afterwards and be like “WTF we didn’t charge them for anything?”

And so ended Monday night.

Tuesday
The last official day of Project Rockstar.

We started with a morning session on inner game with Magnus. He covered a model that he created that leads to acceptance of self and alignment across multiple levels.

We then had closing talks with Mr M, Dr Yen, Bugsy and Freedom of Speech. Mr M plugged in some gaps in our phone/text game knowledge, and day 2 and SCM knowledge. Dr Yen and Freedom of Speech gave us some ideas about how to take what we had learnt in Rockstar and integrate it into our lives moving forward. Personally, I am fucking excited and can’t wait to get the chance to start sitting down and formulating my goals and plans for the next couple of years.

And of course… to end it all off, we ended up at a strip club. This was my *first ever* time to a strip club. It was actually a pretty neutral experience (as you would expect from me no less). I wasn’t overly impressed, or overly unimpressed – it just simply was. Watching Mr M, Freedom and Vishal run verbal game on the strippers though was fucking amazing. These guys are phenomenal at it, and I think it’s something I’d like to look more into in the future. I did have a huge realisation though (again, as you would expect from me). I now understand what it feels like to be on the receiving end of an interaction where the person who is talking to you is not being genuine but is saying all the right things. Over the course of Rockstar, I’ve approached multiple girls and lied through my teeth because I was vetoed into set or doing a demo or whatnot. As we got closer to the end of Rockstar, I found that I just wasn’t able to do it anymore – it really ate me up inside to approach someone and take value by delivering a fake compliment. Sitting there in the strip club, having strippers who are obviously bored, ask all the usual rapport questions and try to make conversation… it was fucking annoying, and really didn’t give me anything but a negative feeling. I am making a promise to myself to never do this to girls ever again.

And so ends Project Rockstar.

- Aaron P

Rockstar Comedy Night – The Videos

So I wrote a few days ago about how we were taught standup comedy as part of Project Rockstar.

Here’s what we came up with…

Alex

Conor

Me

- Aaron P

Day 49: Recovery

Today was mostly spent in recovery from the night before.

I had a long talk with Dr Yen in the morning about the events of the night, plus a lot about my journey through Rockstar. He also shared his thoughts on his own life and where things have taken him.

I had dinner in the evening with my friend J from New Zealand – it’s been a while since I caught up with him, and it’s always great to catchup with old friends and people you’ve met as you’ve travelled around the world. We talked about life, business, game and a bunch of other stuff.

I’ve come to some realisations about the way that I live my life and about myself as human being. Here are some of those thoughts~

• Having the reference experiences of seeing good subcommunications (just hangout with Vercetti), and then believing that you have good subcommunications aligns your body and posture to actually *have* good subcommunications.
• The value of variety. I am starting to think that there is some wisdom in having different types of people in your life. An age-old concept is the idea of a mastermind – a group of likeminded people who you hang around to enrich your life. This goes with the idea that you are the average of the five people closest to you. Mr M and Braddock call this the Navy Seals concept.
  I think however, that there is a paradox here. Let me explain. Dr Yen brought back to Rockstar West a girl from Torture Gardens last night. She is 35 and beautiful, but from speaking with her while we were all hanging out at Rockstar West and over the 5pm breakfast we all had, there is nothing in the “value” aspect of her life. This is not to demean her as a person, but it just goes against the grain of normal societal development that someone at her age and position in life, should have a more set path, or at least some form of direction.
  But speaking as someone whose life has an extreme amount of direction and purpose, I think that there is something there that I could appreciate, and that there *is* some sort of value in having people who are what I would consider wild, or crazy, or disorganised, or simply *different* from the usual people I hang out with in my life. They have a different sort of energy about them, and it adds variety, it gives me perspective, and it allows me to appreciate the different aspects of life more.
  Some more examples would probably work here. Dr Yen was talking about how he has a plan to visit the top fifty diving spots around the world, because it is something that he simply enjoys. This is something I would never have considered before. Micha mentioned somewhere the times in his life where he just went out with his friends from his hometown and had fun – for days on end. This is something that I never experienced in my own life. The girl that Yen brought back mentioned something about spending time travelling and just hanging out with friends playing guitar for weeks at a time. These are all experiences that I would never consider an “efficient” use of time, and would probably never consider in my everyday logical train of thought. But the fact that they provoke an emotional reaction within me, tells me that there is value there. And that there is therefore value in having people with a different perspective and way of living life around me. And I don’t even really like to use the word “value” – perhaps a better way of describing it, is that both my life and these other people’s are enriched by there being some form of relationship between us.
• People are fucked up. I’m starting to accept this idea more and more now. Everyone. Is. Fucked. Up. Including me. We are all just fucked up in different ways.
• Finding the one thing about someone that makes them amazing. This is something that Paladin (http://www.organicseduction.com/) said to me. And I have been trying to find it truer and truer in my own life – only now am I starting to see how this can dramatically improve my relationships with others and my social skills in general.
• Happiness is a myth. This one is deep. And it’s something that I realised while I was talking with my friend J. I realised that I’ve been living my life for the past year or so in what I perceive as happiness – but it’s not true happiness. It’s more like an elevated baseline state with no highs or lows. This is similar to the way that Mr M describes his everyday life. We were discussing what true happiness actually is, and this is what we came up with. True happiness, is living a simple life, like that of a monk, in seclusion. That is one expression, and one that I have considered for myself a number of times. It could also be the path that Eckhart Tolle took for a period of time, which was being homeless and just enjoying his days wandering from park bench to park bench. The third alternative is a little more macabre – it is death itself. I am starting to believe that people who do anything in their lives – whether it’s Eckhart Tolle teaching spirituality now, or myself pursuing my business goals and passions, do it from a place where there is not 100% happiness in our lives. There is something that we feel is missing, or incomplete, or just not right with our lives and the world. For if we were fully 100% happy, then there would be no further need to do anything. For me, this single realisation is *huge*. It is the first step I believe in self-acceptance of who I currently am – and surprisingly, I am fine with it. Accepting and realising this is the first step towards evolving to the next level.
• Life is full of paradoxes. Concepts from David Deida or RSD like “your path and purpose is more important than any relationships in your life” are great in theory. And I tried to subscribe to them for a while – but it’s hard. Especially when my path and purpose involves relating to others. This creates a paradox – I have the choice to believe in either belief at different times. This is difficult especially if your brain is wired to be logical the way that mine is. But being able to think in and live with paradoxes is a skill. It is a type of neural net, and one that I need to train more.

Sticking Points

Outer Game

• Verbal Game – attraction. Teasing and Sexual talk neural net training. Practice attraction via scenarios. Practice asshole game via scenarios and in-field.
• Verbal Game – vibing, qualification. Practice via scenarios.
• Verbal Game – sexual hoops (including SOIs). Finish going over Mr M’s talk, list them out, use them in both off-field and in-field.
• Logistical Escalation. Practice in-field.
• Physical Escalation. Practice in-field.
• Takeaways. Practice in-field.
• Delivery. Practice in-field.

Inner Game

• Logistical Escalation. Practice in-field.
• Identity & Beliefs. I am starting to understand more that all people (including me) are fucked up, and that we all have some parts of our lives that are amazing, and that we are able to contribute to others. Adopting the belief of “I may fuck this up, but let’s joust.” Realising that you only need to score 30/100 to pick up. No need to aim for 92/100. Realising that acceptance is contextual, and that I don’t really need to care about others’ acceptance of me, and that it’s more about my acceptance of them for who they are. Killing the belief of “if people don’t accept me, fuck them.”
• Capitalising on reads in real-time (this is a behaviour-level change). Needs more exploration. Still not automatically doing this in set.
• Boundary function.
• Self-image. Frustration as something I have overcome and will continue to push through. Realising that there’s nothing wrong with me, and that my greatest strengths are also my greatest weaknesses. I have completed more work on warmth and connection – and understanding that people are fucked up will help with this. Realising that my baseline state is nothingness and just relating with others, and that there is nothing wrong with living a life that is not 100% happiness. Seeing self as having fun when going out, and being someone who enhances the social situation. Creating the social instigator part in myself. The Alex Lesson.
• Behaviour. Learning to present different parts of me to different people. Learning to wield emotions via logic. Listening to the weird shit others say and trying it, without judgement.
• Emotional Management. Letting loose on emotional block points. Revelling in darkness and dominance, and the ability to play with my own and others’ minds. Ingrain idea that opening up emotionally will give me an enhanced ability to access the social sphere.
• Capabilities. Ability to see primal parts in others. Ability to recognise that in some areas of my life I need others to help me grow.
• Intent. Push more on this.

- Aaron P

Days 47-48: Torture Gardens

This is going to be brief.

Friday

Rested up for Torture Gardens. Played with some asshole lines.

Saturday

Went shopping for Torture Gardens. Went to Torture Gardens. For various reasons I can’t really reveal the details of what happened. I’ll let the other guys fill you in.

- Aaron P